1.13am, 13/12/2010. Gonna sleep @@

Loving U is a beautiful wound....Cun da betik told me....well of coz i m NOT the 1 she subjected to....but da....if before tis....i will "mental" after seeing tis sentence....buahhahahaha!!! coz COZ coz, i might feel it too. :(

Erm...during the time i had to let go, cun did me the BIGGEST favour. Advice, support, mentally(keep murmuring...) and physically(jogging/walking to odec...teking few hours foot journey jus to watch the "curly hair"-wave...). I had gone through a hard time. Really a hard one. She was there, 1 2 3, 4 3 2, for me. I appreciate it very MUCH. (ehehehe). From maa heart k.

BUT but BUT, actually at tat moment, no matter wat cun did, wat she said, i din see it at all, i counldnt hear it at all, this effect only came when i really do wanna let it be, let the feeling over, let hold...off. AND tis effect keeps coming slowly until now and tats y my healing process gets better and better. Time and family may not be the MAIN medicine for "love losers" though. Coz without the right ppl support u, bad times will keep following u, even forever. Coz family is the most important for us, so when we hurt, how can we hurt them by telling them we r hurt?

Hmm...now....recently, cun da betik is going through lots of, lots of stuffs. I am sad, quite sad, i cant 1 2 3, 4 3 2, in person, with her there. Mentally, yes, i keep murmuring back to her like she did to me las time, i keep giving her positive supports. But i cant accompany her to the sea there~~ even recently her room was broken in by an unknown thief, oso i wwas NOT there!...LUCKY!!! ow no...i mean....coz i usually stay at her room(her rumate gone) for most of the nite(UMS)...but when tat happened, i bek here(hometown) oledi~~(if i was there tat nite, may be RIP dy.... :p)
then her wallet, hp, IC, UMS card, even passport are stolen!!!! BUT maa EXTERNAL still there!! LUCKY buahahahha!!!!....i mean ow noooo....then i was not there to accompany her to polis station la, there to calm her down la(she was terriblely freaking out), there to lend her my hp la...THEN lucky got Khaliq..ehehhe...her bff oso.. was there to help her up. :DDD
then tat nite before the "robbery", she was mental for her personal stuff yet me n zali did mentally support her oso tat time. Jus we counldnt expect, "robbery" will hapen then. LUCKY she is SAFE n SOUND! hooh!!!~
and now...she is undergoing a ..erm...healing process oso...but "starting"....so now is quite a hard time oso for tis betik...but wat can i do, as a fren, ehem...a GOOD one...is only listening to wat she wana tells me, n giving her the positive and sumtimes "cruel" feedbacks. (hehe...she was like tat before oso! :ppp) ANYWAY... time is given to her, and oso me, for the process. The most EFFECTIVE medicine, is still ourself.

WATSOEVER, "love is to let go", I still DONT agree.
BUT, " When he/she let U go, he/she doesnt love u SO" , tis, is kinda a fact :)

and tis "love" is oso refering to the case of between friends, real friends, and between families, real families. :)




nite FANS!!! :DDD

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